My Utmost for His Highest

If I say, "I will wait till I get into the circumstances and then put God to the test," I shall find I cannot. I must get the thing settled between my self and God in the secret places of my soul where no stranger intermeddles, and then I can go forth with the certainty that the battle is won. Lose it there, and calamity and disaster and upset are as sure as God's decree. The reason the battle is not won is because I try to win it in the external world first. Get alone with God, fight it out before Him, settle the matter there once and for all.

Sandy V always tells me to pray about something for 24 hours before bringing the issue to the surface. By then, God will either take care of it, or he'll give you the exact words to say to make the solution happen.

I went to the dentist on Thursday.

This was Thursday.



I have 2 cavities btw.
I get em filled the day before I leave.
That's a bit overwhelming.
I think Mom's gonna try to work her magic in getting those filled sooner.

the chain.

real music. ugh. If I ever finished a song, I would want it to be this amazing. ugh.

Listen below. Follow along below that.

Lyrics to The Chain :
The sky looks pissed.
The wind talks back.
The bones are shifting in my skin and you my love are gone.

My room seems wrong.
The bed won't fit.
I can not seem to operate and you my love are gone

(Chorus)
So glide away and so be healed and promise not to promise anymore and if you come around again then i will take, then i will take the chain from off the door

I'll never say, I'll never love
but I dont say a lot of things and you my love are gone

a sarah blog first

today I feel sufficient

Today I didn't do too much. a few dishes, swipe here, a cleaning there, a cleaning out here, a messing up there. I read half a book(I won't say which because apparently it will cause too much controversy) and slept a bit. I tried to play Rainbow Connection(act like you don't know the melody.)
I've been getting little done with all of my time. And at first, I felt funny having all this time and nothing major to do with it. But today, I forced myself to sit down and just read and enjoy iTunes on shuffle. Get to know my thoughts again. It's been a thrilling day for such a boring one. This is me at 2am. 34 days left until I need a new power cord for my computer. 34 more days.

craaaamps

tonight was fun.
1.I found out there are a few people that I didn't think would be athletic that are.
2.I turned white and green/blue shoes into brown and green/blue shoes playing volleyball in the grass.
3.Levi came to Crossfire with me.
4.I found out that brothers are just as protective of their brothers as Joe is for me.
5.I almost finished my thank you's.
6.I spent time with the fam. things are good.

bad things.
1.I have cramps.
2.I started my period early(why??!).
3.I have to be at in service tomorrow at 6:15am.
4.My hair is wet and cold and probably a bit sweaty.
5.I have to sleep on it.
6.There was really bad Sweet potatoes with way too much cinnamon at the thanksgiving dinner tonight.
7.I still have to find a replacement for thanksgiving.
8. I took medicine, yet I still have cramps.

curse eve's faulty choosings.

I'm on Steroids

I am agitated today. All day. Except I couldn't figure out why. Found out why. Steroids suck joy out of you. Literally. Like a swirly swoopy straw. A neon green swirly swoopy sucky straw of steroid death. Pour that in your kiddie cup and drink it.